dragonraid

note: this is currently a work in progress so...yeah...lol

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I’m sick and tired
Of waiting
Each and every day feels the same way to me
Nothin changes
Nothin happens
Been like that for a while now
Ever since I could remember
Damn
Wish I could forget her

If time is moving
I’m standing still
Waiting for something
That will
Never happen to me

I want to be
More than this

So sitting here
By myself
No one else
Never was
Maybe never will
I’ve had a lot of time to think
To dream
Call it fantasy
But I’ve always wondered
What if “this”?
What if “that”?
Maybe I should call it regret
But it don’t matter
It’s all been done and said

I want to be
More than this
But maybe
I’m tired
Of trying

[Where is my]
Happy ending
[How am I]
Supposed to breathe?
(Been trying, been trying)

My heart skips beats
[When I hear]
Those words

(Three)
Three
[Just three]

But there's no princess to save
No heroine (heroine)
[I can't be]
(A hero)

No

No pain to kill
No suffering [suffering]
(And it's only 5 past 2)
A
M

(And)
Just wondering [wondering]
Will I (ever) be
[The one]
She wants
[To hold?]

Here's a secret to listen to
I hope you're someone
(I can) confide (in)
The truth is reality
[Haunts me]
Every step
(I take)
Every breath
(I make)

There's no princess to save
No castle
To take her away (from)
There's no hero
(In me)
I've been trying [been dying] to see
Just what this life could be
Just what this life could mean
(And yet) the tears fall [inside]

Fall to bed with eyes shut
So tight no one can see
I'm crying [been crying] (for so long)

(I'm trying) [been trying] It's funny how I can't see
(I'm crying) [been crying] Clear with so many tears in my eyes
(I'm dying) [been dying] It's funny how just watching
(I'm trying) [been trying] Got me thinking so
(I'm crying) [been crying] Now fall asleep with eyes open
(I'm dying) [been dying] Still watching, still waiting
(I'm trying) [been trying] For a reason to dream
(I'm crying) [been crying] For a reason to keep
(I'm dying) [been dying] This heart, open

And I feel like falling apart
Wide awake just to feel the pain
So I would know to breathe (but how?)
[Something's wrong!
Feeling vulnerable!]
Like a leaf would just tip me over
[I'm falling! Falling down!]
Into the darkest depths of despair
(Lock it and swallow the key)
Hide this heart away where no one else can see
[Keep them outside!
Never let them in!
Keep your heart locked tight!
Never feel, never feel again!]

There's no princess to save
No castle to take her away from
(How do I breathe?)
[And it takes just three]
Words to break
The locks and chains
Wound (so tight) around my heart

No storybook ending for me
I've been waiting [every breath]
Waiting [every step]
Reality
(Just go)
Someplace so far, far away

[Feeling so]
Vulnerable
[So]
Vulnerable
[Fragile hands]
Keep this heart
(Together)